hey readers..ii noe that it has been quite sumtym that ii didn't update my blog..well..i've been bz..my schedule was quite tight..ii need to attend for my dance trainin since ii hve two invitation fr this month..ouh damn.tired to the max kae..cnnt tashan lar wei..hvin trainin all the wae..den wen it cmes to our performance dae..its much more tiring kae..noe yy..??coz each of us don't hve enough slp..although we are all tired, we still gve our best shot..we hve to..we tend to act as if their the proffessional ones..while they are not..fiuh..simply can't entertain dis kind of ppl..noe yy ii sae so..??coz ther'e dis particular prsn talk too all of my dncemates as if she's the proffessional ones..not only the way she talk..but the way she dnce to..don't she realise the way she dnce was totally cock up..ouh hell..she don't hve nice moves..yet still wants to compete wif my dnce grp..yes its true..she's the one who choreograph those funny steps..ouh it was totally not our moves kae..we hate those kind of dnce steps..better of my dnce grp leader..kak gerl..she's the bez leader..noe yy..??although she's the leader, that doesn't mean that only her who can choreograph dnce steps..we too can choreograph..gve an idea nor suggestion..as most of dancers noe..certain leaders wants their student to cme fr trainin wif proper attire..unlyk her..she let us wear what we want..we ever came wif improper attire..eg. sleeveless, hotpants, shirts, shorts && many more kae..swear its totally improper attire..den we tend to bring sumone along wif us..uu noe..swear..she's the bez leader..no ciggarate..no worries..she will provide us..no transport money, no worries too..she will supply..unlyk that particular prsn..she wants it evitin to be perfect by few tyms of trainin..while she was the main prsn who mkes our combine dnce to be cock up kae..ergh..its fun kae to join dis kind of grp..whenever we hve our invitation, we gonna receive an allowance..unless we dnce for f.o.c lar kn..hmm..kae2..now change topic..ii mish hubby && gerlfwens too kae..noe what..??me && both of my gerlfwens tend to take same courses && ite too..i'd nvr thought that they want it to hve the same course, but they kol me && says that they want to be in the same course && ite wif me..ii was shocked kae..unexpected kae..then laz mon[ 28/12 ] we get to noe the ovrcme of our application..this is funny kae..gerlfwens && ii didn't manage to go for ite..coz the courses that we applied for was full..so ii told them t reappeal..so now we hve to wait fr the ovrcme for the re appeal..kecoh per..hubby was lucky that he manage to get the course he want..but sadly, he get ite amk..so far frm his hme kae..ergh..wonder how we gonna mit up when we both start skoolin..haish..no matter how, ii hve to find my own tym to mit hubby..is either aftr my claz ends or skip classes..hiayoyo..thought of mitin hubby tmr..but he gonna be out wif his fam since each year cntdwn he clbrte it wif fam..so not gonna mit hym nor disturb hym..let he enjoy the tym && hve fun wif his fam..hmm..so tmr probably gonna be out wif all of my sis to clbrte new year..hmm..till now den..

hubby, its our anni !! && yet uu hurt me again..?? though it meant to be excidentally of me saw her pic, it still hurt me so much hubby !! noe yy..?? coz uu told me that uu'd deleted her pics frm ur fone.. but ii'd never noe that uu kept her pic in ur wallet!! ehy it hurts kae.. once again uu hurt me on our anni !! don't uu realise that im sufferin the pains..?? ur quite lucky that im not bein nasty towards uu by askin uu to burn her pic by urself or me burn her pic ryte in front of ur eyes hubby.. swear !! my heartbeat goes dag dig dug when ii saw her pic.. uu thought that ii don't realise..?? uu're wrong !! ii saw it once.. den when ii saw it twice, ii juz can't take it anymore.. therefore, ii approach uu.. hubby, noe wat..?? juz wanna remind uu.. if uu tink uu wanna play dis kind of game.. den we shall play it.. we shall see who gonna lose, back off, winner && give up.. as uu noe, ii lurv to play dis game hubby.. so if uu think that uu can do it, den ii also can do it.. hubby, ii'd gave uu what uu want.. but ii still don't undrstnd.. what else uu want..?? nk kate aku maseh cntct ngn x aku.. sumpah da tk.. haish.. tk phm arh.. ii juz can't stp lurvin uu.. no matter how deep uu hurt me.. my lurv juz keeps on grew stronger evidae.. hubby, try to put urself in my shoes.. what will uu feel if ii keeps on hurtin uu && lie to uu..?? what will uu do if ii were to keep other guys pictures..?? will uu be ego if ur not at fault but uu hve to keeps on givin in..?? or maybe what will uu do if ii were to keeps on sayin that uu juz want me to do as uu sae while im not..?? c'mon hubby.. think !! if uu manage to think, den uu'll noe what && how ii feel deep inside.. im tryin not to show the pains that im sufferin.. but im a normal person too whereby when ii juz can't hold it animore, ii have to let the tears went off my cheeks.. im tryin not to be sarcastic nor ego toward uu.. but ii have to.. in order to let uu feel what ii feel, ii have to do so.. uu do noe it hurts.. same goes for me.. ii dunno why uu juz can't stp hurtin me.. yeah.. its true what has ur cousin told uu.. seems lyk evidae we've been fytin ovr the fone.. do uu think ii want it to be that wae..?? no ii don't !! she says that we shall give each other tym in order to be lyk bfre where there's no fyte..?? what was that were suppose to mean..?? tym-off..?? no ii don't nd it.. coz whateva ii've messed, im gonna make things clear as bfre.. maybe ii don't nd it.. but what abt uu..?? uu noe what..?? actually, ii sumhow afraid of us havin our anii ystrdae.. noe y..?? coz sumtin used to hppn on dis particular __ mnth anni bfre, where we tend to separate bcoz of sumone && sumtin.. ii told myself that it shouldn't happen again.. therefore, what ii manage to do ystrdae was juz let my tears flow on my cheeks to lat go off the pains.. although it tend to be small pain, but it hurts me deeply.. thought of not look && talk to uu when ii saw her pic ystrdae.. but.. ii have to be ego.. yy..?? coz im tryin my bez to hide those tears frm my eyes && pains which im sufferin.. but ii noe, no matter how hard ii try to hide, uu still can see it.. hubby.. litsen to this songs.. it meant for uu.. litsen to the lyrics..!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XKibjTrYvQs

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qnPyLuZexyY&feature=related

litsen to it hubby !!!!

firz thing to write down was abt hubby. hubby, don't uu realise that uu tend to forget an important promise wif me.?? remember that ii ever told uu to promise that uu will never mention abt break up nor leavin.?? remember.?? yeah hubby, uu ever make that promise to me. but now, what uu've promise && the things uu do are totally diff. on the past few days, uu told me to leave uu. but end up, uu say sowie. hubby, is not that im tryin to be ego nor unfair. im tryin to be fair ayg. im tryin it by spending my tym equally for uu, family, fwens && trainin too. but seems lyk uu juz can't undrstnd me. look hubby, ii have to take care of so many hearts && feelins kae. ii don wan to dissapoint any of uu ppl. but to undrstnd uu ppl, ii need all of ur undrstndin too. ii need it so that ii won't mke uu ppl hve the feelin of hearthache nor dissapointed. that's all ii need. nothin more. let me promise to bring each of uu joy && happiness. hubby, do uu wanna noe in what way hve uu been hurtin me.?? in this such way ;

- uu keep ur ex's photos

-ur harsh words

- when uu say that if only uu noe that this is how my attitude is,

 it would be better if uu don't patch wif me

-when uu juz don wanna say sowie when its ur fault

-uu are ego

-when on our 2nd mnth anni uu hurt me by ur wrds && ur honesty

-when uu say that ii don hve respect fr uu while ii do.

-uu says that ii tke mly dnce as my first priority

-whereby uu juz don undrstnd what's my situation is

-when uu juz don wanna litsen to what im sayin, my feelins && heart says

-when uu juz don stop hurtin me

yeah, ii noe its too many. but its okay hubby, it was juz a part of it, as for the rest, i'll keep it personal instead as it truly hurts me deep inside. at least uu noe what ii feel. ii noe im hypocrite at tyms. ii do realise. even there's this person who used to tell me that i am hypocrite. he says that ii lurvs to pretend that i was fine && happy wif my lyf while im not. ii lurv to hide the tears && pains && show the fake smile. ii try not to mke it obvious. but, he's the only one who manage to spot it. he's the only one who know's how rude, nasty, sarcastic, cruel && etc am ii. im sowie hubby if ii mkes uu hurt the other day. thats it for hubby. now let's mve on to K.B .

Eeeewww !!! swear, the both of uu look's "GORGEOUS" !! know what.?? ii juz browse through K.B's profile. amazingly, she && her besties took few pics as they went for prom nyte. den guess wat.?? the way they dress up doesn't looks lyk goin for prom, but looks lyk goin for ______________. haha! they wear dress. as for one of them, ii dunno wat to say. don she realise that what she wears doesn't suit wif her dress.?? she were suppose to wear it wif high heels instead of palm shoes. its very awful. ouh ya hor. forget that she's unlyk her besties. yelar, besties dier kn kind of "lady light".. ouh whatever !! who they think they are.?? as if they are the most glamourous amongst all gerls of my badge. oh no no. both of uu aren't juz one of it. but juz acted lyk one. aha..thats true. haha ! ii juz can't stp lookin at those " GORGEOUS " pics of them. they looks " STUNNING " kae !! lyk wat she says, she wants to act lyk one of the kakak2. well, act lyk kakak2, semue org pon bleh buat dear, tapi, kalo kao act lyk one wif such a childish attitude wat for seh.?? no use. buat malu diri sendiri. wuuuuuhhh. noe wat.?? the both of uu should be ashame of urself !! lagi2 kao K.B . care kao je da macam ____________ !! ouh one more ting, gerlfwen told me that K.B && bestie are workin. woo.... pndi pulak nie satu betine buat lawak !! haha, dulu ckp cm yeye. kate ank org kaye !! smpi2 nk show off kt all of us. firz dae raye dpt duet bnyk lar, kalao nk kua sentiase ader duet lar.. mcm-mcm lagi yg K.B ckp !! feelin2 a.o.k arh nie satu betine. padahal punyer padahal !! rumah hdb flat, kerete satu je da nk feelin2 plak. haiya. ngade2 arh dekni. kalao kao ader 2 rumah terrace, 4 kerete, bpk kao ader cmpny && so on, bleh lar kao ckp yg kao nie a.o.k. nie tk. kenyataanyer kao nie same je cm org2 laen. hdp sederhane. oh tidak. betine cm gini pon ader. haiyoyo.da lah gedik + mentel + menjeng + penipu !! kalao da di ++ kn..evitin gonna = to ___________ !!!haha. mcm phm arh nie K.B. ouh ya !! is it true that kao pnah gie swimmin pki BIKINI.?? coz ii don tink so. haha !!kecoh arh nie stu betine. walaowe !! ehy hello sister !!!! kalao kao rse kao nie a.o.k. , den ii don tink that there's a need for uu to wrk. ryte.?? ouh don tell me that uu wrk coz uu wanna be independent. coz ii noe that ur such a lazy bump. yelar, evn slame nie pon kao depent on ur prnts && siblings. kn a.o.k. buat pe lar berssh pyh nk keje. kn lebih baek rileek kt uma gyng kaki kalo tk pon merayap. no worries abt money. ii cn't blve that uu are a.o.k as kao slalu tk cukop duet. balek2 aku ngn gerlfwen yg tmbh2 kn kao nyer duet. but no matter wat. aku halal kn lar duet tu sumer. kalao tk, ssh plak kao nantikn. ehy2 bt noe wat..?? if ii wsn't wrong, uu used to sae that ur such a high stndrd prsn ryte. but, how did uu manage to wrk at such a low stndrd place wif a low income. OMG !! unblvble !! ouh yar !! hah !! how IMPRESSIVE it is when the one uu used to hate && critic, ends up to be ur bestie.?? ehy cme on lar sister !! serbk-rbk aku ngn gerlfwen pon, kte kalo da kutok nor benci org, kte tkdelar nk bercampor nor member ngn org tu. unlyk uu. get it.?? OMG !! oops...... ii shouldn't be usin kao, aku to interact wif uu. in order to interact wif uu, ii were suppose to use uu, ii. yelar, uu kn ader stndrd !! hey babe, come on lar, sedr lar diri to siket. tkya feelin2 kakak2 paradise lar. uu tu same je cm ii. hdp sederhane je. tapi !! klao nk feelin2 jgak. no probs. we shall challenge.. jad kepe.?? haha !! well im challengin uu, coz, ii juz wanna show that, no matter wat. ur still further low stndrd den me. hmm !! how am ii suppose to describe uu as.?? Liar ? "Gorgeous" ?? "High Standard" ?? "Honest" ?? or Hypocrite instead ?? haish ! K.B noe wat.?? ckp tk gune ! tembak tk kene ! cakap tk serupe biken buat pe.?? uu tau tk yg hdp uu nie sbnrnyer bermke2 ?? kadang baek ! kadang cm sial ! haiyo ! hmm !! kae lar ! that's it for nw.. for the both "GLAMOUROUS" gerls of my badge, this meant fr uu, && try to figure out urself on wat this were suppose to be ___________ !!